seasons that I don't want to make my way through

There are seasons of life, at least that is what I am told. Anywho I feel a season coming on.

I feel that since everything has just come out that. Number one God is here for me and He is super strong. I feel unworthy of the strength or just plain absense of any serious temptation. However I know it is to come back which is scary. However the season I feel I am entering into is a season where God is hugely beside and behind me. Giving me great strength and support. However I feel that I am going to be doing a lot in what "SEEMS" to be loneliness. It's going to be me working very hard for a relationship and not feeling a single thing. You know? It's hard sometimes because I want to feel intimate with God. I just experienced enough separation. I don't want or need anymore.. I mean obviously I need this cause God is giving it to me but EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE SO HARD. That is my little BLOB before bed.

Night.