scream and shred your lungs

It's clear to me now that this feeling is not letting go.

I would just like to declare that some of the sayings that I use on this blog are stolen from songs. I would also like to declare that Ronnie Day rocks!!!!

As in the previous blog that I posted; a comment was received that stated that God is the most vulnerable and the easiest to reach. That idea. Well; I am going to examine this beautiful and wishful statement.

Just to make a big statement: Stephanie I am on your side and I do believe your judgement is beautiful and that you are totally right; God is the most open being EVER. Total truth, she speaks the truth people!

Here it is, the great word from Shaun Reimer, the insignificant little boy from Mitchell.

Openess of Jesus. Why is it first of all that it doesn't feel like it? That it's almost like it's not true? I will tell you why. Dang it we are the ones closed! Blah! Blunt why don't I. Anything else. Well we push Him away and we are just so, so not cool. That brings up another question however. Why does it feel like it's harder to connect in real life then when you feel as high as a kite? Maybe cause your already there. Maybe because you fall away when you aren't high. I am going to tell you; if you stay with it then you know what? You can be near Him always, I mean you can always be near Him. If you don't leave Him, He won't leave you! I am trying to get at something but I feel I can't do it justice. So I will gather my thoughts by stating facts and thoughts.

Vulnerable
Open
people closed
sinful
far from Him

I don't know exactly what to say. I mean we separate ourselves from the wrong thing. Instead of separating ourselves from the wicked ways of the human condition we separate ourselves from God. I know that everyone has and does, just to prove it, what does sin do? Separates us. So that is that and I know that no one can say that they are not a sinner. Despite all of this it is really hard to be so free and in touch with God and just near Him. Really how hard is it? Really hard, but really can't you just make a decision and follow it? Yes, but the thing is you will always be a sinner so you will have to deal with things along the way but you can do it. Anyone can, God has made it all possible in Himself. If you depend on God then all is possible. God is open. Does it feel like it? Not always. Just so much to grasp, so much we can't grasp.

Lets dig deeper then just thoughts and separate this and that. It seems to be a common theme in the last few blogs. I just can't get over it or something. Well here I will attempt escaping it to find something else. Open. More about promise then anything. God has many promises all stated in His word. He speaks of His openess through the entire bible! No joke He is open; look at the way He speaks to us, what He says and brings forth. He brings His whole heart and all His passion! TOTAL OPENESS! Psycho. That does bring it back to the fact that we have to do our part; our part is just to be open. Beautiful response is it. Respond with yes, respond with openess and willing and just work at it, find Him and just keep drawing nearer and nearer.

Open yourself.

Last note, read the Kite Runner it is an amazing and passionate book about Afghanistan. Read it up.