the life to lead

Refuse yourself the love which has been given to you. How could you live with yourself? I have been lifted. He has lifted the truth of my heart. The passion has been stirred. What does this has to do with the refusal of the love of Jesus? I have been refusing it for my whole life. I have found it! I have found it and embraced it. I have actually put my love back into. I have made the choice. I said no to my human addiction. To my destruction. I said yes to Jesus. I said yes to His agenda. I embraced Him and I stood my ground. I didn't refuse. I did the opposite. I embraced my first love. I decided. I did it right. It felt good. It felt good to not just think of myself, but to think of myself and my future with Jesus. It felt good to look away. To stand and turn my face, my cheek. It is an unbelievable step. A huge rush of love. Of commitment. Am I now committed? I sure hope I last. Will I last? Will I stay strong? Will the pressure let off, or grow stronger? It will grow and knock everyday. It will come and try to take me. Try to take my heart away. To take it away from its place of passion and love. To remove its commitment its sincerity. I am sincere. I will stay in such a state. I will be in Christ. "To live is in Christ, to die is gain." Is it not the strength of the Lord that leads our lives? It is only the love and passion and steadfast heart which will survive. I have a steadfast heart. Is it mine to cherish? It is God's for He will reign and be glorified, it is for Him alone. This glory is of Him. Yet in His glory I am blessed. Survive? Not just. I will not stand idly by; I will not only survive or scrape by. I will be strong and I will tower over the darkness, in the light of Jesus. I am baptised in the Holy Spirit. I have Him inside of me. I do have the power of Jesus. He will reign in my life. Every knee will bow. Not only if they surrender, if they fight. Don't refuse the love that you don't deserve, accept the love you don't deserve embrace with your life. The commitment of your life. Die to yourself. Don't refuse it.