I got it

Lads and ladies, I got the job!

I am doing it up at the church. I am doing anything from helping with setting up to, specific projects, perhaps the junior high youth..etc. I'm super excited about this, I hope I learn a lot and I hope that I kind of get an idea if it could turn into a career possibly.

Well that is probably the most exciting thing I guess. Here is the not so exciting part..that has nothing to do with work. Side point quickly, I'm not going to be elaborating about my studies like I thought. But anyways, I am just wanting to express something feelings and personal worry..

I am a little unhappy with the lack of "super crazy supportive" friends or "peeps". I just can stand the fact that I don't have people that I can be like, lets go have a heart to heart on this issue..I mean it is really upsetting. I won't say that I don't love my friends and that they aren't great, I just want a fiery influence and not even so much an influence but relationship. I want a support system right outside my door and I don't feel like I have that here in Steinbach. It seems like out of all the children that I am around I am the only one that feels compelled to SPILL MY GUTS. I am just tired of go through battles alone, I am not saying that I'm alone in whatever my life struggles are but its just..I am here so let there be someone else and not someone that I am just comfortable with or cool about or that can "talk" with me but someone that I can COLABORATE with.

There is a good side to this, a badder side as well however. I feel less motivated to study and get into a regularly functioning I hate to say "routine". The good side is, in some ways it makes me just want more quiet time with God because I don't want to waste my time "hangingout". It makes me want to visualize, talk, meet with, worship God on a far more personal level.

I don't know..and the other thing is that I am struggling...well I wouldn't call it struggling but, I am being bothered with the idea that I feel the "need" or "want" to get to know girls. So I guess that isn't news seeing as how I made that known as of yesterday.

Well bummer eh??? So that is today, we will see what tomorrow will bring. Have a good one.

Shaun-loverboy