you paralyze me so
I am feeling pretty good at the present time. I feel good, but perhaps on edge. I want some security. You know what I mean? Like what is it like to feel the love of God 24/7/365? To know that He is always there, and not only that but to know that you will fall on Him and not past Him. I want the heart that says in the greatest of times: Here is Jesus. And in the worst of times: Wow there is my best pal still. What kind of beautiful love.
Other hand now. He is there always. We aren't, we perhaps that is the answer to what I felt I was asking. As well how do all the feelings that are incorporated with life's situations take you away from God? How to simplify that...well what determines your closeness to God and why does it? Does the bible strengthen that, well I mean does it help counter attack the fact that feelings shouldn't control you?
Well what I would say is that yeah the bible would definitely help you be strong in the times of weakness and times when emotion takes over. He is always there and emotion has nothing to do with it. Emotion is so good though. What changes your emotion? How can your emotion be steady and pleasant? I have no idea, if someone could answer that for me that would be great. Though I do believe the answer would have something to do with the fact that we can't control our emotion and that it won't always be pleasant. Reality check I guess.
How can we forget paralyzing love? How pathetic our we? Or am I? I know what it is like to have a real relationship with God. Why the heck would someone ever let anything wreck that? I have no idea. Man, I don't know why its so hard to get back either. Maybe it is just lack of effort, He is there right? Yeah, well just a thought.
God is great, and it is just beautiful. That's that.
I am starting a new section to this part of my post. I am calling it:
Black Windows
Can you see through black windows? Black windows with black frames?
The windows are dark
all I see is your reflection
the darkness passes through
washed down
and there you are
still and motionless
you never leave
it won't last
cause I know
I'm not the one for you
don't look at me
when I tell you
I'm sorry
you know its true
I wouldn't hurt you
but I do
oh to be paralyzed by you
the sweet touch
the sweet sent
I can feel you now
but your shadows faded in my eyes
your still there
I your still there
1 comment:
Oh Shaun. How beautiful is that poem? I LOVE IT! Such talent, you are gifted.
That post was a good one too. Actually, I was just talking to a friend today, and was asked "how are you" and I told them I was so full of joy, and so happy. And I ended by saying "God is just so good" Then I thought about that. I was like, I wonder if I can say that when I am in depression. I wonder if I can say "God is good" when tears are streaming down my face and I am mad or sad. I doubt it. I usually am saying "Why God... why does it have to be like this.. yadayadayada". Anyways, that's my story. I kind of thought it tied into your post nicely.
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