what's my heart made of

My heart is either made up of words or of actions. Words cannot satisfy by themselves, but neither will actions alone.

These legs are meant to walk, not just stand. My mouth is meant for true words. Words without actions do not ring true. Just as my eyes are meant for the light, do they not encounter darkness. It says in the bible that darkness and light come in through the eyes. What are your eyes encountering. What your eyes see may change how or if your legs walk. Does your mouth even speak the truth?

Words feel so meaningless but so do emotions. What would make these so meaningful. The truth for one thing, but actions as well. True heart perhaps. I gather that you all want true heart. Do you have what it takes, or are there only some that do.

What do false committements feel like. Well perhaps loss. Failure. Low selfesteem, and low confidence levels. No faith in yourself. How can you not believe in yourself and try to prove yourself at the same time. You just can't. What is a promise when it is not held up. It is nothing, in fact it is in ruins. You promise and then you lose trust. Love. So many things. Dignity, integrity. Others could be well I don't know, just lose self, lose heart.

I feel as if I have lost heart. Isn't it ironic how when your in bad situations you sin because it doesn't feel like it matters and in good situations you sin because you feel you need it. So you dig deep holes when you are already deep and you make new ones and ruin the good things that you have going for you. There is just no upside is there.

Lose self, lose heart and you have lost it all. I've lost it all. Not in second chances. In heart, in passion. Life sucked from my veins. Breath stolen from my lungs. Yeah I believe in second chances. I believe God forgives. I don't believe my word means anything. My promises are abandoned and deserted, they are only filled with words of hurt and momentary weakeness.

Empty words and empty promises. Empty hearts and empty souls. When do you know if He has left you. Well that's the thing, He doesn't. I heard once that some people go to church on sunday and God isn't even there. This may bring a whole new perspective to that and to me.