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Tuesday, September 27, 2005

the newspaper clippings

Him: perhaps broken hearted
Him: the hurting process
Me: yes, yes it must begin somewhere
Me: I don't want to though
Him: Sometimes you got to
Him: I love you the same
Me: I guess your right, I just don't feel it
Him: Well that could be because you are too busy with how you are feeling
Him: It may also be because you just don't want my love
Me: Well you know I want your love, I just shut down
Him: That's true, but when you shut down I am shut out...I still love you the same
Me: Well I just don't know what to do. I mean do I just have to believe that you love me even though I don't feel it?
Him: Well if you know I love you and you believe it and are sticking to it and loving my promises and taking them for yourself, then your all set. Don't you think?
Me: I don't know it just doesn't seem like a good enough answer. I mean that can't be all there is to it. I mean it doesn't feel like that's right.
Him: Well I love you. Connect with me.
Me: That sounds about right, but how?
Him: You know its all about the heart.
Me: Yeah, but somtimes I just want to be comforted.
Him: I know. I am here if you want to be comforted.
Me: Sometimes I don't want to ask to be comforted, I need you just to do it. Show your love. Isn't that part of it?
Him: Yes. If you are willing to accept it.
Me: I am willing, I was. I just needed you to come and help me.
Him: .....
Me: Help me understand.
Him: Well, I mean ask me. Find me.
Me: I couldn't though.
Him: You didn't want to.
Me: No I did, I couldn't I was unable. I was hurt too bad. I asked. I did.
Him: You heart felt as cold as stone.
Me: I was crushed.

He guys, I didn't plan on this being my blog for today. I wanted to do something a little different from this, just as emotional but a little different. I would love to know what this sounds like from your perspectives. Please help me answer this question: When you are heart broken, how do you feel the comfort of God? I don't really know how to fit anything else in this post so there you have it.

1 comment:

Kristi said...

Feeling comfort from God can be difficult at times when you are hurting, as he is not as tangible as we sometimes wish he were.
Try soaking in his presence. Laying on your bed or floor. Putting on some soothing worship music. Just spilling what you are feeling to him. Resting. Picturing His tangible presence comforting you. Connecting your heart with his heart.
I'm praying for you, Shaun! I love you!

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