save me

Save me in my desperation. Save me from my absence. I need Your abounding grace. I need to be filled with a love and joy that cannot be grasped. I don't want a mainstream insignificant life. I don't want to be a fraud of my human nature. I want to be true. I want to chose, by saying, by doing. I have made a choice, at least it appears that I have, it might appear well at least to myself that I have made the wrong one. Long and drawn out depression. Holding onto all the wrong moments. I have been cleaned, purified I have been forgiven yet I am controlled by the very thing I'm fighting. I will be the bones, the bones coming to life. I will grow flesh and muscle. I will be built into a being of Jesus Christ. I will be disciplined. I will be obedient I will not hold onto this world. To my wrong doings and my transgressions. I will be tattooed proclaiming the very significant love I have been granted. I will be a soldier, a soldier of the army. I will be saved from my fall. I will be caught before I hit the floor. I will be saved. I will be trained. And I will attack.