cause the scenery is just a shame

I don't know what to really tell the people I love.

It seems that there is no one that understands, it seems I am alone. Though Jesus never strays from us, in our most desperate hour what happens? Aren't some of the most desperate times in our lives presented and or created by God. Yet in those times when we are to seek Him, what happens to us? Don't we feel useless and alone? What of that?

And what comes of tireless work without passion and fervor? My best guess is that work is rewarded, and I would say that when you try sufficiently then things happen and change. However what of being embraced in weakness? It is all so unclear, doesn't love come first, then you work on love, and the maintenance of it? Or is love born of hard work...

I find it all so incredibly temporary and almost elementary. I do not know. That is how I feel, I don't know and what I know is nothing. I mean for all the knowledge in the world you cannot find passion and for all the knowledge in the world you can't even KNOW.

Even if I turn out to be right about certain things most people weren't right about, what do I have without zeal. Knowledge is claimed important, well I say it is nothing without passion - as zeal without knowledge is nothing neither is knowledge without zeal. I can't fathom how there is a possibility of building on love when it is not present in the first place. Love first. Show me the love.

Maybe there is a searching that must take place, seek first the Kingdom of God. - first commandment - love the Lord your God with all your heart!!!!! That is the first thing commanded of us! We will sin, but Love God dangit.

So is that not the most depressing thing? Not feeling love to the greatest love, to the love of your life, to your every breath? It is unbearable.

I mean to have only onething - love and passion for GOD, for Jesus Christ, my Savior. Sin and all the rest will fall if you have love - if love exists can sin exist also? No. And we will and I will screw up but - love is well what we need and it will motivate us and help us through and we will make better choices...

SHOW ME LOVE