This Brutal Chain

That's a pretty intense title..

Anyways I don't know exactly what to say right now, I think there are many feelings that I would like to express and that's why I am blogging obviously..

However, before I get into any type of expression I will just give you guys a tasty little update.

Number One: I am going to be hanging out with an old friend Kristin Loewen and we are going to go out for coffee sometime this week.

Number Two: I am going to be having coffee with Cam Tucker/the tall skinny man, that has plenty of love in his heart and lots of knowledge in his head. We are going to chill and dig into the depths of one another's lives.

Number Three: I have no word back on a Job, which is a very bad thing because I want a job and I need a job. Money, how it is a necessity it seems. Pray for provision in this area please.

Number Four: I miss a lot of school which in itself is not a problem however, I need to have more fulfilling sleeps so pray for that as well, and I need to get quite a bit of work done as well so I need prayer for some good effort and a willingness to put in the time to do my work.

Number Five: I need to spend a lot more time with God and be very consistent in reading the word.

Number Six: This number happens to be a question. What can I do to react properly when parents act ridiculous?

Number Seven: I love WIDGETS...

The last one was just for fun. Anyways I would like to move onto the part where I can express myself and have release from whatever I am feeling.

I am annoyed at the lack of patience some people have (father). It makes it difficult to contain anger sometimes and well I am human and I will tell you there is a limit to my restraint and it may even be a lesser limit then some of yours but never the less I am annoyed.

-blurb..randomly, well since I started blogging which was a few minutes ago I discovered I am feeling upset..what to a depressed person would be depressed, however I am not and have no reason to be. But I need more Jesus..

Here is a pretty big issue, it has to do with why I want a job and why I don't want to be in school anymore. I NEED MORE STRUCTURE! As people we need structure right? Yes we do, thank you..and not only do 'we' need structure 'I' need structure so having a lame schedule in school, too much free time, no job and little support to keep me in line I find it very hard to stay focused and to focus my energy towards God and give Him lots of my time.

As far as knowing what else to bring to the table I have no idea, I just hope that I have an awesome and relaxing Christmas holiday.

I love you guys and rock out for Jesus, give Him your heart.