how do you find desire

How do you find desire for something that you have lost?

How do you find a desire that you have but don't exercise?

I feel like deep inside I still have desire, but why is it so flat and bland. Well I guess it is my fault shoot. I let it fall away i guess. I just don't feel that what I believe or want to believe is true. Not God. I know He exists. What I am doubting is the following:

true love
good heart (how it is enough)
happy endings (change)

I just don't know. That is where I am at, and I want my life to commence but it can't.

Unresolved issues and things perhaps..well I don't think those things can be fixed or changed as I said in the little list above. Everything seems like it would be so much work but not only that I don't feel or to be honest necessarily believe it can get better or actually be healed. Temporary is not good enough and it feels like the only thing I can do is ignore it which again is temporary. What else can I really say. I mean issues are everywhere and I feel no hope for the life I want, for anything I want.