what is so beautiful about tears

Tears of joy are a beautiful thing. When your eyes meet, your emotions fly and your love is so great you can do nothing but cry and smile all at the same time.

Love, is that basically the point that I am trying to reach? Possibly, but the thing is I know that love has a lot to do with God but that isn't the level I am trying to tell you about. Though it is the most beautiful love of all I don't feel a great interest in it. I know that is a horrible thing. At the present moment, I feel lost. On the other side of things I do actually want God's love and a beautiful relationship with Him but it seems unattainable even though I know it isn't at all. Anyways I don't know if I actually want it or what but I wrote this song and all it has to do with is love. Love of a girl. A young and beautiful woman, my wife.

Leaving you hanging there. I am not sure what it is all about or if it has to do with what my heart wants. I would like to know. I would definitely love to be out of school and fully matured and another huge thing. I want to know myself so I know what I am presenting to this young lady. Whoever she is and whenever I will meet her. I want to know myself before I get to know someone else. I just want to be grown up, but not too grown up. I want a job that I love. I want to love living.

Recap. Subconscious talking to me and perhaps God as well. My heart wants love. I want to love living and I want to know myself. What else do I want? Well I think I will just share this song with you to give you an idea of what it is saying, then perhaps you can tell me what I want.

sun shines and the rain falls
I know you can't understand
you won't
I know your the one for me
your my darling my sweetie
back where the rain is sweet
I see you falling back to me
I wait on the back steps
you pull up in your car
as the door opens
you see me
we run we meet
tears of joy consume me
sun shines and the rain falls
I know you can't understand
you won't
I know you are the one for me
my darling my sweetie
back where the rain is sweet
I see you looking back at me
as we walk together
I see you watching me
and your eyes with there surprise
true love lies there
sun shines and the rain falls
I know you can't understand
you won't
I know you are the one for me
my darling my sweetie
back where the rain is sweet
I know you love me

That's all I got. I don't know what else to say, except I love the beach.

-I figured it out! What if its God not a girl!