fortified fire burning

The fire that burns inside is a fire that seems fleeting to most, to me. Seems temperamental, and circumstantial. Lets not let is be this way. On the contrary what I am about to say may in fact seem very interesting and may seem very circumstantial.

I am going to camp this year and I am going to turn 17 at camp. I think; like I have thought in passed years that there is something special for me this year at camp, and that the seventeenth year of my life is going to be something else. Something special from God. A year that will completely change my life and who I am. I have thought this before many times actually. I thought it last year, and last year definitely was a huge step. I got baptised, and this has caused me much conviction and deliberation. Mostly conviction. I have been convicted; I have seen this conviction with new eyes, but the sin which I had been fighting has found its way back into my life once again. So end to end I felt that my baptism was meaningless and I felt ashamed in front of God. Then in the midst of some of these events, my mother shared this with me: We will kneel blameless in front of God, with Jesus at our side. Well that was great news. Still this does not attone for what I have or will do. I do realize however that being baptised does not mean that you will stop sining, we always will and I know that. I do still feel that this year will be such a great stepping stone into my true life. Into what will become real. I seem to have such a lack of commitment for God and for the relationship that I have and share with God. Though there is something about passion and worship being stirred into my life. There is something and I know it. I need to commit to Jesus. I need to acknowledge Him. Recognition, and not circumstantial recognition or any sort of variable love.

It needs to be steadfast and forthright. That is something that needs to be found and upheld in this generation. Sincerity. The true blazing fire. The fire which the true Lord will start. If you do not contain the true and fortified fire...there is something missing. God will find another. If you are not willing He will. Something I realized; there is a time that God will call you and you need to be ready, if your not He will find someone else. He will of course not forsake you. He needs your willingness and truth. The Lord is not tricked, if you are fake, you will not be recognized as real. There are so many people not only that do not act the way they should or play the part as a Christian should. They are not sincere. If you are a liar, will God believe you? That is what I have to ask. The answer obviously being NO is you cannot fool God, if you are trying to make God look like a fool, you will be the only fool. Be a fortified rock, do not pretend, it is not worth it because it will get you know where. Either you are real or your not, decide and act upon your choice. Yes we have time, but it is variable; if God comes tomorrow you can't start over. Start living today, though you will make mistakes, be sincere. Fortified Fire Burning...